Sunday, January 31, 2010

Where to Begin?

Last Tuesday afternoon, my dear soul mate, lover, best friend and husband of 45 years passed away unexpectedly, literally in my arms.

I am lost without him and inconsolable. My two sons are here helping me cope, and together, we have cried, laughed and regaled in fond memories of my dear, sweet, John,

I'm sure that in time, my Muse will return to me with fond memories and allow me to once again fill this blog with thoughts and pictures of our beloved Maine, but until then, I will sign off for a time to heal and spend time with my boys.

To those of you who still have your loved ones near, please hug them and tell them you love them every single day. Our time in this world is so very tenuous and the moments precious. Hold them close.

Sleep well, my Johnny Angel, til we meet again. I have loved you so desperately all these years.

11 comments:

NellJean said...

Giddy, I am so very sorry for your loss. I cannot imagine how you must feel, but I can tell you that in time things will be different than they are right this minute. Not better, never the same as before, but different from the anguish of today.

You are so blessed to have your sons with you through this ordeal.

henbogle said...

Dear Giddy,
I too am so sorry for your loss. I will take your advice and give Dan a big hug and a kiss. I hope your memories, family and friends can provide some solace at this sad time.
Ali

Kerri said...

My dear friend, Giddy, my heart is breaking for you.
I can't even begin to imagine the feelings of loss and grief that you're experiencing.
Thank God your sons are with you to help ease the pain...to cry and laugh and remember your sweet, wonderful John. You have both been blessed with those 45 precious years.
You'll be in my prayers and thoughts dear friend, and I'll go and hug my hubby right now.
Sending love and a huge hug. Take care of yourself.xoxo

glbuzz said...

Sandy, I am so very sorry for your loss. I am sitting here crying because I feel like I knew the both of you even though we never met.

You will be in my thoughts and prayers. If there is anything that I can do, please do not hesitate to let me know. I think that you have my email address but if not, I can be contacted via the website. I am not that far away.

I am off to hug Steve.

Hugs, to you.

Zoey said...

Oh,Giddy, I am shocked to hear this terribly sad news. I can only imagine how hard it is for you right now. Thank goodness your sons are with you. My deepest sympathy goes out to you, my friend. My prayers will be with you.

jenn said...

Oh, Giddy, I am so sorry. The sweetness and tenderness of your relationship with your husband showed clearly on your blog posts. You are in my thoughts and my prayers. Take comfort in your dear sons.

Cruiser said...

Sandy - I've told you before, but you, Jason and Brian are in our thoughts and prayers everyday. We are so honored to have called John our friend and cherish our memories from Lajes - the cookouts, AFRTS functions or the boy's band concerts. Of course, we can't forget the time we all went to that concert in Champagne and none of us could stop laughing hysterically and tried desperately to stifle it - getting many 'dirty looks' in the process. I hope you will be able to reflect on your beautiful life with John one day soon and smile again.

How I wish I had a magic wand, to take away your pain, but only time can do that. I'm so glad you are with your boys. I pray you will find strength and comfort from each other during this sad and difficult time. Take care of yourself.

Life truly is precious and I will be sure to hug Randy and all my loved ones.

Sandy

bonifer said...

So sad to hear of your loss, I have checking in on your blog often in the last two years,
Life is not fair sometimes.
my condolences...

Crafty Gardener said...

I am so saddened to read of your loss. The sun will shine once again in your heart and all the wonderful memories will come flooding in. Take care.

Giddy said...

Dear Friends,

Thank you all so much for your kind, heartfelt words of condolence. I hope to be able to resume my blog soon.

LauraO said...

Giddy, I have just returned to reading blogs and writing mine, and I was stunned to read this. I am so sorry for your loss.